Ip dip dog shit, you are not it.

Yesterday at work, I somehow got it into my head that my colleagues thought I was inadequate, a waste of space. Whether or not this is true is not only unknown, its entirely irrelevant. For, as a result of my little worry, I became.. a waste of space! How this is quite possible, when the sum total of my professional responsibilities amounts to putting bottles on shelves, Im not entirely sure. But a waste of space I was. I dropped bottles, put things on the wrong shelves, picked up the wrong items, was in the wrong place at the wrong time. Notice how often the word 'wrong' featured in the last sentence? An awful feeling which definatley turned another day at the office into a 9 hour blushing marathon of apologies, mistakes and self asteem bashing. The thing is, Im not a waste of space. Not as far as I know anyway, but the very thought of me being seen as an incabable idiot turned me into just that. An incapable idiot. What influencial things those self fulfiling prophecies are. My very disbelief in myself led to me actually phyically dropping bottles, among other stupid things.
With this in mind, it becomes clear quite how risky the gamble the Metropolitan Police are taking at the moment actually is. The Met, the most powerful, influencial, and arguably important police in force in Britain have begun contacting a number of protest groups warning that the planned protests in reaction to the upcoming G20 summit in London are going to be "very violent". Not only this but senior commanders have been quoted saying that they are "up for it, and up to it". The idea behind this rather gung-ho tactic is of course to deter as many people as they can from the protests, in the hope that they can reduce the tens of thousands of expected protestors to a more managable number. The risk of course is that by advertising the fact that they believe April 1st to be a violent day in London, they may have just written there own futures. What more of a call to arms could the violence wanting, angry protestors of the UK want than the super confrontational language used by 'the man' , in this case.. the Metropolitan police. What they may have just done is deter the peaceful protestor, the average joe who isnt happy with climate change, capitalism, war and globalisation. And attract the radical shop smashing, effigy hanging anarchist. Of course I hope that April 'financial fools' day comes and goes with nothing but a very clear, profound and above all peaceful point being made by the protest.
My fear, is that if that the uber powerful self fulfiling prophecies which led me to drop a bottle at work yesterday, may just lead some people to throw them on Wednesday.